Lockdown Regret

Ye kahani start hui thi 4 yrs pehle jab corona start hua tha.

Mera naam Nikhil Rai hi. Main apni wife or 5 yrs ke baby ke sath delhi mein rehta hu. Main ek MNC mein marketing manager ki post pe job karta hu. Wahi meri wife ek Media agency mein job karti hi.

Hamari love marriage hui thi kyuki mere papa meri shadi ke against the. Oh Main apni wife ka naam batana toh bhul hi gaya. Uska naam Rashi hi. Rashi ki family ne humein bahut support kiya or main socha chalo apne inlaw ke pass hi shift ho jate hi taki humein bhi thodi help ho jaye. Phele maine ek flat same apartment pe rent liya tha jo 2 BHK tha or sath mein servant room bhi tha. Phir kuch time ke baad main woh flat buy kar liya or uski registry Rashi ke naam pe banwa di. 

Rashi ke mummy papa ke sath mein uska ek bhai or bhabhi rehte the or ek bhai or bhabhi Malaysia mein rehte hi. Sabhi log meri bahut respect or pyar karte the. Wahi main thoda ghamandi or old type ka tha. jo hamesha sochta tha ki ghar ko chalane wala mard hota hi. Main Rashi ke office ke male collegues se bhi mujhe problem hoti thi or main usko kisi bhi male se jayeda baat karne se mana karta tha. Kabhi kabhi toh woh bhi mere se gussa ho jati thi ye bol kar ki sare male ek jaise nahi hote hi. Kyuki hum dono hi kaam bhi busy hote the toh Rashi ne kaam ke liye Shikha ko rakh liya tha. Shikha Rashi ki mummy ke yaha ghar ka kaam karti thi jo hamare ghar se thodi dur rehte the. Toh Rashi ne usko hamare yaha kaam pe rakh liya. Woh hamesha saree mein rehti thi. Shikha Rashi ko didi or mujhe sir bolti thi.

Ek din jab Shikha kaam karne ayi toh Rashi se boli didi apke flat mein ek servant room hi toh kya main apna kuch saman waha rakh sakti hu. Rashi ne pucha kya hua Shikha sab thik toh hi. Shikha boli didi woh mujhe kuch or kaam mil gaya hi yaha pass mein or main kya karti hu. Ghar se dusre kapde pehn kar aati hu or yaha change kar leti hu. Lekin jaha mein change karti thi woh didi ne mujhe kaam ke liye mana kar diya hi toh please agar aap maan jao. Rashi boli thik hi mujhe koi problem hi. Tum please apni ek photo bhi de dena kyuki ye log tumhara id card bana dege taki tumhe under ane jane mein koi problem na ho. Shikha boli thik hi didi. Uske baad Shikha servant room use karne lagi thi. Lekin hamare ghar mein usko kuch bhi cheez touch karne ki permission nahi thi. Yaha tak ki agar Rashi kabhi usko chai ya khana bhi deti thi toh woh kitchen mein zameen pe baith kar khati thi. 

Sab kuch thik chal raha tha Lekin tabhi puri country mein corona start ho gaya. Corona ki wajah se Shikha ne kaam pe ana band kar diya. Ab pure ghar ka kaam ka bhoj Rashi ke upar aa gaya tha. Kyuki hamara marketing ka kaam tha toh hamara pura department kuch dino ke liye band kar diya gaya. Lekin Mere office se half salary mil rahi thi. Ab mein pure din ghar pe rehta or Rashi pehle ghar ka kaam karti phir office. Ek din kaam karte karte usko chakkar aa gaye. Main usko doctor ke pass lekar gaya. Toh doctor boli good news hi. Rashi ka 1st month start ho gaya hi. Lekin tum dono ko bahut careful rehna hoga kyuki aise time mein bahut bar kuch galat bhi ho jata hi. Main bola aap paresan na ho main Rashi ka puri tarah khayal rakhoga. Main bahut happy tha ye good news sunkar. Lekin Rashi boli suno abhi kisi ko kuch nahi batana kyuki office mein mere promotion ki baat chal rahi hi or agar unko pata chala ki expected hu toh mera promotion kisi or ko mil jayega. 

Ab Rashi ko ghar mein bhi kaam karna padta or office ka bhi. Ek din Main Rashi se bola suna ne tum kyu pura din paresan hoti ho. Hum ek naukrani rakh lete hi. Rashi boli Are bahar ka mahol dekha hi. Main risk nahi le sakti hu toh kisi bhi bahar wale ko hum ghar ke under nahi bulayege. Main bola toh ek kaam karo tum ghar ka kuch kaam mujhe sikha do. Main woh kaam karloga. Rashi boli are nahi mujhe bilkul bhi acha nahi lagega ki tum kaam karo or main aram karu. Waise bhi tum hi bolte ho ki ghar ke mard ko bahar ke kaam karne chahiye. Main bola lekin mujhe ye acha nahi lagta hi ki tum ish halat mein ghar ka kaam karo. Rashi boli rehne do main manage kar logi. Main forced karne laga toh Rashi boli agar tum nahi maan rahe ho toh thik hi lekin mein ek condition hi tum pant shirt mein ghar ka kaam nahi karoge. Main bola ye kya baat hui. Agar main apne kapde nahi pehnoga toh kya pehnoga. Rashi boli jo kapde main dogi woh pehnna padege. Main ready ho gaya. Rashi boli thik hi kal ready rehna phir.

Next day sunday tha toh Rashi ka holiday tha. Usne mujhe jagaya or chai offer ki. Chai peene ke baad, Rashi ne pucha toh batao meri help karoge. Maine kaha yes. Rashi boli toh phir ek kaam karo jaldi shower lekar aao kyuki main naha chuki hu. Uske baad tumhe ready karti hu. Ek baat or Pleae apne hair shave kar lena. Main bola lekin maine toh kal hi shaving ki thi. Rashi boli beard nahi apne body hair remove kar lena. Or please jaldi jao. Mujhe samjh nahi aya lekin phir bhi main jaldi se bathroom mein gaya or shower lekar wapas aa gaya. Bahar Rashi mera wait kar rahi thi or usne bed pe kuch kapde rakhe huye the. Rashi ne sabse phele mujhe ek cotton ki panty di. Maine pucha ye sab kya hi woh boli dekho tumne bola tha ki tum meri help karna chahti ho or mujhe pasand nahi ki koi mard mere ghar mein kaam kare toh main tumhe auart banaogi. Phir Rashi ne mujhe bra, blouse, petticoat or saree pehna di or boli dekho ab se tumhe roj yahi pehnna hi toh please khud se phenna sikh lo. Main roj roj tumhe ye sab nahi pehna sakti hu. Uske bad mere hath mein plastic ke chudiya or ear mein earing pehn diye. Phir Rashi boli chalo ab jhadu utho or ghar mein jhadu lagao. Maine jhadu lagna start kiya or Rashi mujhe dekh rahi thi or correct kar rahi thi. Thodi der mein woh khadi ho gayi or mere aakar boli tumhara saree ka pallu bar bar gir raha hi, Dekho isko aise tuck karlo or meri waist mein usko tuck ark diya. Jhadu ke baad Rashi ne mujhe se pure ghar mein pocha lagwaya woh bhi knees pe baith kar. Meri toh halat kharab ho gayi thi. Rashi mujhe dekhkar samjh gayi thi. Woh boli aaj ke liye itna kaafi ab servant room mein job or kapde change karke wapas aa jao. Main jaldi se dusre room mein gaya or chaneg karne apne kapde pehn kar wapas aa gaya. Rashi ne mujhe chai offer ki or boli kaisa laga aaj khees pe baith kar kaam karna. Main bola bahut muskil hi lekin main tumhare help karoga.

Next day se Rashi ne meri waki training bhi start karwa di or ab mujhe ghar ki safai ke sath sath khana banana bhi sikha rahi thi woh. Pura din mein saree mein rehkar ghar ka kaam karta. Kuch hi dino mein main sabhi kaam khud se karne laga. Ek din jab main kaam kar raha tha toh Rashi mere pass ayi or boli main doctor ke pass ja rahi hu toh please kaam katam kar lena. Maine pucha main chalu kya woh boli iski koi zarurt nahi. Tum ghar dekhna please or car ki key lekar chali gayi. 2 hrs ho gaye the lekin Rashi ka koi pata nahi tha. Maine call kiya toh usne disconnect kar diya. Uska wait karte karte main so gaya. Jab woh wapas ayi toh main bahut gussa hua or kaha mera call kyu nahi uthaya or doctor ne kya kaha. Woh boli please cool ho jao sab batati hu. Phir boli sab kuch thik hi or boli dekho tumhari progress bahut achi hi or tum sara kaam bhi sikh gaye ho. Lekin main abhi satisfy nahi hu ki tum ghar main kaam kar rahe ho. Maine pucha toh batao ab kya karo. Rashi boli ek kaam karo tum kapde change karo or salon mein ja kar jaldi se apne pure head ke hair nikalwa kar aao. Maine pucha aise kyu. Toh Rashi boli tumhe kya office jana hi. Main bola nahi abhi toh leave pe hi hu office se. Toh please jaldi jao or hair cut karwa ke aao. Mere hand mein ek cap dedi or boli wapas laute time ye laga lena. Taki kisi ko kuch pata nahi chale.

30 Min baad main wapas ghar aya bina hair ke. Rashi boli naha lo or jaldi se room mein aa kar milo. Jaise hi main wapas aya sabse phele Rashi ne mujhe ek box dikhaya jismein breast foam the or boli jaldi hi ye tumhari chest pe chipkne wale hi. Or woh dono meri chest pe chipka diya. Phir mujhe bra pehnai uske baad blouse. Phir mujhe saree phehnai gayi or uske baad ek glue ki help se Rashi ne mere head pe ek wig laga di or boli kaisa lag raha hi ab. Main bola thoda heavy feel ho raha hi. Uske baad mere hand mein glass ki bangles pehnai or pairo mein bhi payal pehna di. Uske baad Rashi ek niddle lekar ayi. Maine pucha kya karne wali ho tum. Woh boli thoda chup karo. Or mere dono ne ear mein ek ek ched kar diya or cheap se earring pehna di. Uske baad boli ab ek kaam or. Main bola please waha nahi. Rashi boli kuch nahi hoga trust me or meri nose mein bhi ek ched kar diya or usmein ek nosering pehna di. Uske baad Rashi ne pucha ab kaisa lag raha hi. Main bola bahut pain ho raha hi. TUmne aisa kyu kiya.

Rashi boli dekho roj roj tum ghar ka kaam karte phir night mein mujhe paresan karte ho or kahi jao toh tum bar bar call karte ho. Toh ab se tum parmanent saree mein rahoge. Ab kuch kaam ki baat karle. Dekho ab tum saree main hi rahoge toh ab se tum mere husband nahi ghar ki naukrani ho. Toh kal se tum morning mein 6am uthoge or mere liye breast banaoge uske baad ghar ka sara kaam karoge. Ab se TV, laptop or mobile sab band. Tum khana bhi mere bad khaoge woh bhi kitchen mein baithkar kyuki mujhe pasand nhi ki ghar ki naukrani table pe baithe. Ab se tum servant room mein rahoge or jab main bulaoge tabhi wapas aaoge....Ab meri help karo or khud ki bhi...Bye